Recently it occurred to me that I may have read God all wrong. Generally this is the part when I would use the D word. Instead I will keep it classy. As far as I can remember I have heard people say that “everything happens for a reason”. Some say that things that happen are in God’s will or according to his purpose. Others may say “the Lord will reveal it.” I ask, “who told them that?” “We need to talk.”
Right now the way that I understand my life is that either I suffer from an undiagnosed mental illness that makes me incapable of understanding God’s will or I am destined to live my life beneath HIS privilege. Today sitting on my bed in 2019, I am still there.